urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holdmedownxx Annie Annie 2008-04-30T01:33:17Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holdmedownxx:885 2008-04-30T01:33:17Z 2008-04-30T01:33:17Z I'm actually going to write in this, I think. <br /><br />Today is one year exactly that Tom and I broke up. And I lost apart of myself during this year. Maybe it was the worst year I've had? No. It wasn't. Yes, I lost my best friend. But I learned a lot about myself. I made so many mistakes this year... falling into stupid guys. getting hurt. hurting people, thinking that I'd feel better. I did feel better, but then I realized how fucked up that was of me to do. <br /><br />And today, Tom and I have a fragile friendship... but it's intense. I'm glad to have him back in my life. Last night we had a conversation that honestly brought tears to my eyes.<br /><br />Anyway. I'm off to do governement. More later. I'm going to post about Idol... which was 2 weeks ago HA, but... I need to get it off my chest. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:holdmedownxx:673 2007-11-05T04:43:11Z 2007-11-05T04:43:11Z Applying to colleges is stressful. Life is stressful... this whole goddamn thing with my ex boyfriend/ex best friend needs to end. I literally can't live without him, as I'm learning.<br /><br /><br />Today I sent in like 3 applications. It was glorious. I don't care if I get rejected to these schools. I realize that my #1 choice has changed. A huge, huge, huge huge amount. And now if I don't get in, I'm going to be crushed.